Saturday, May 21, 2016

Letters to Luka | Two Months Update

My sweet Luka,

When you were one month old, I said I knew the time would fly. And here we are with two months come and gone. You've been the best little sidekick since you've come into my life and these four weeks and two days since my last letter to you have been just as wonderful as the first four. 

You and I have become the best of buds. We've conquered many shopping trips {the bumpier the grocery cart the better}, been to cedar point twice {you stay on the ground, just like me for now}, and have made it through to restaurant experiences. You slept through your first dinner date with daddy and me! You've watched mama cry through many books as I've read them to you and heard me sing many lullabies. I even adjusted the words to Anna Kendrick's "When I'm Gone" and sing it to you before I leave for work. 

"I gotta get up go to work today. My room's got the prettiest of views. It's got letters, it's got numbers, it's got bright and pretty colors, but it sure would be prettier with you. When I'm gone. When I'm gone. I'm gonna miss you when I'm gone. I'm gonna miss your button nose I'm gonna miss your little toes, oh. I'm gonna miss you when I'm gone. 

When I'm gone. When I'm gone. I won't be gone for much too long. I'll be back to give you lovies, I'll be back for kisses and huggies, oh, so don't forget me when I'm gone."

We keep going with your eyes, smile, tummy, and other things when we sing the song until I've covered all of the wonderful things that you are. Going back to work and leaving you has been one of the toughest things. I miss you a lot when I'm gone and cry on my way to school. I worry that you'll be mad at me or forget me or that I'll miss some awesome thing you'll do. But I know Mima is taking good care of you and the pictures and videos I get during the day make me even more excited to see you and love on you when I get home. I promise that we will make the best of our evenings and weekends during the school year and our summers together will make up for the time I'm not with you. 

You've truly made being a mama so easy and I love all of our little moments together. When it's time to let your perfect little body rest for the night, I love when you aren't quite sleepy yet and you stare up at me from your bassinet beside the bed. I think you like watching me fall asleep just as I do you. And when we wake up in the morning and you finally open your  eyes to face to day, I give you a smile and you smile right back, melting my whole heart into a pile of mush. No matter what is going on in our lives, I can't not be grateful for a day that gets to begin like that. I'll hold on to them forever. 

So here's the scoop on your second month, Luka Bear. 

My last post, you were still under ten pounds. Now, I can't believe how big you are! We will be going to your two month appointment soon, but the last you were weighed you were 10 pounds and thirteen ounces around six weeks!

You are still wearing 0-3 months but where your sleepers once were loose they now fit nice and snug. You've even grown into some 3-6 month pants! Your old navy ones are our favorite, by the way. We are still using size one diapers but I don't think we will for much longer! We're trying to use up this stash of 350 size ones but I'm not sure we're going to make it. You're getting pretty close though!

We've had to change the straps on all of your seats at least twice now. You should've seen mama and daddy trying to figure out how to loosen the straps on your car seat. Well, you were there and I'm pretty sure you thought we were crazy!

So far so good on this front! Again, your little belly gets rumbly from time to time and it hurts me to see you scrunching up from the bubbles, but we are learning how to help you. Other than that you've been healthy and we are so thankful! I'm currently hoping you don't catch the cold I've got or I will feel terrible for giving it to you!

You're favorite thing I think. When nursing during the day, you will start to get hungry every two hours if not a little earlier. You only nurse for 10-15 minutes at a time though. We started giving you pumped milk in a bottle just after one month to get you used to it for when I went back to work. You are such a laid back little boy and you will take a bottle of any kind that we've tried no problem. Depending on the time of day, you will take between 2-4 ounces. You're a little piggy though and you will gulp it down like you've never eaten in your life! Your chubby cheeks are a hit with everyone so you can keep on chugging away.

I know I said if last time but I can not thank you enough for how well you sleep at night, sweet boy. At around seven weeks you started sleep from 10-4:30 or 10:30-5. We put you in either the super swaddle or an arms out swaddle. My goal was to get you to bed for the night around 10-10:30 and sleep until 6 when I went back to work at 8 weeks. And you did it! This past week you have gone down at 10-10:30, let your mama get up at 5 to get ready for work, and I would wake you at six to get you ready for the day. I am one lucky mama to have a boy as good as you, though I'd love you either way. Keep it up for me!

You smile a lot now and it's one of the greatest things. We do the cheerio face back to you and you light up with the biggest smiles. You love being talked to and bounced around. You have such a sweet demeanor. When you cry or you're fussy, it's because you are hungry, tired, or just want to move around and check out the world around you. When you're awake you're always making noises, holding your head up so high. You don't just see things, you really watch and take in what's going on. Another thing that I love that you do is clench your right fist and pound it up and down. You never stop moving your hands and legs {your right sock is usually on the floor from all the kicking your heels so much}. 

Things you like
  • All of the things from last month
  • Smiling at and talking to people
  • Talking to your "sheep friends"
  • Looking at high contrast things
  • Staring at your black and white art cards
  • Being rocked
  • Daddy and mama's cheerio faces
  • Being propped up so you can see what's going on
  • Watching your doggies
  • The super swaddle
  • Looking at lights
  • Listening to music

Things you don't like
  • Hiccups
  • Being on your belly for too long
  • Waiting to nurse once you're ready
  • Mama wiping your face
  • Abrupt noises
  • When you are stopped during eating to burp
  • Gas bubbles
  • Spitting up

Life with you sure is fun. I'm so glad that I get to be your Mama and I can't wait to know you more, sweet Luka. 

Love Forever,
Your Mama

Thursday, April 21, 2016

Letters to Luka | One Month Update

My sweet Luka,

I can not believe that it has been one whole month since I got to lay eyes on you on the outside for the first time and hold your little warm body in my arms. 

Our first month together has been a whirlwind. In so many ways, it seems like I blinked and it was here... But at the same time I can not remember what life was before you. Even though we are all learning this new way of life together, every step of the way has felt natural. I believe it's because you are where you truly belong and I am living what I've always been meant to. 

These weeks haven't necessarily been easy but they have not been hard either. Even when I'm exhausted and we move to the couch so we can let daddy get some good sleep for work, or I have to hop out of the shower before I'm sure the conditioner has completely been washed out of my hair because I can hear you cry, or when it's one in the afternoon, I still have spit up and milk stained pajamas on, and I can't remember if I ate breakfast or brushed my teeth yet, I don't find myself complaining. My hope is to continue to enjoy all of these moments with you, for I know you will soon be two months, then three, and four, and five... And the months will all too quickly turn into years and I will yearn for these simple times when you just need me to be there. These days with you have been some of the best days of my life and I wouldn't trade a second of them for the world.

So here's the scoop on your first month, little prince.

You started your life on the outside at 7 pounds and 7 ounces. Thanks for that by the way. We were all a little scared that you were going to be a chunker since mama measured big the whole time you were on the inside! When we left the hospital, you were down to 6 pounds and 13 ounces. I didn't mind because it meant I got to keep you teeny a little while longer. Just five days later, you were already almost back up to your birth weight at 7 pounds and 4 ounces! Most recently, at your three week well baby, you had weighed in at a big 9 pounds and 3 ounces! This was so very bittersweet. Sweet because it was good to know that you are a growing, healthy baby boy, but bitter because it was a reminder of how quickly time passes by. 

You've outgrown some of your newborn outfits already and have started wearing 0-3 and 3 month sizes in clothing. A few days shy of four weeks, you switched to size one diapers. Perfect timing because we were all out of size newborns anyway! Speaking of diapers.. You went through more than 232 newborns in that amount of time. That's a whole lot of diaper changes! You keep me and daddy busy. We also have learned that we like pampers and that huggies are no good. At least not for you. I think you leaked through every single one!

At days old and on you were called a "c-section baby" so many times. Not because you were but because you looked perfect. Your little body was flawless. Maybe you got a special kiss from a special someone in heaven before making your big entrance into this world. Your apgar score was a 9. Made your mama and daddy proud! At your 3 week appointment, Dr. Karen said you were a perfect picture of health. I hope and pray we continue on this path! Your umbilical cord finally fell off one day shy of three weeks. I was beginning to think I would never get to give you a real bath! I think you have a little reflux. You get a little grumpy {and gassy} after nursing and spit up with your burps from time to time. Mama tries to follow the doctor's suggestions and we sometimes use gripe water. I think you like it mostly because it masks the taste of spit up for you! You also like the taste of your vitamin d drops. I was curious why you perk up when getting them so I gave it a little try. They are pretty good!

You love to eat and have been a breastfeeding champ. Our appointment with the lactation consultant on day five was perfect. You were latching with no problem and were gaining weight back. You made me so proud and so excited that I was doing a good job for you too. We make a great team. You like to eat just about every two hours during the day still and occasionally you like to power feed every hour for a few hours. Mama was a nut and tracked every nursing session and for how long, every wet and poopy diaper, and your sleeping hours for just over two weeks. I wanted to make sure you were getting and doing what you needed but I learned very quickly that you're smart and to trust you. You wake when you're hungry and you nurse just as long as you need. If something is off, you'll let me know!

Thank. You. In the past month, you have had four "tough" nights {two of them being the two in the hospital} and they truly weren't that tough. Since night one at home, you've been pretty great at your days and nights. We started out swaddling you "arms in" at bedtime, but you didn't like that too much at a week old. You are great at going right to sleep after your 11:30 pm nursing and you give me a big 4-4 1/2 hour stretch! After that, you sleep for two to three more hours before wanting to nurse again. We've had only two nights so far of moving to the couch after 3am because you wanted to wake up every hour. You sleep in your bassinet next to my side of the bed until daddy's alarm starts going off. Then daddy usually says, "give me that baby" and cuddles you until he gets up for work. You make the silliest noises while you sleep and I love falling asleep to the sound of you.  

You are a pro at funny faces. The "cheerio" is one of my favorites, where you push your tiny lips out into a circle like a cheerio! Another favorite is when you are sleepy and being lazy. You want to be involved in what's going on but don't want to really wake up so you just peek at the world with one eye like popeye. You also make a lot of judgmental looking faces. No intentional smiles yet but I can't wait for the day when you give me repeated smiles. A strong little boy you are, holding your head up and moving it from side to side. Your froggy legs give big kicks constantly... Just like in my belly. You've found your thumb and your voice. We've taken you out on the town quite a few times and you've been great. We always have your fooler and white noise app on stand by just in case!

Things you like
  • Being held and cuddled
  • Sleeping on mama and daddy's chests
  • Your rock and play sleeper
  • Mam pacifiers
  • Your owl vibrating soother
  • Making crazy dinosaur noises
  • Dancing with mama and listening to me sing to you
  • Bath time!
  • Looking at faces
  • The sounds on our sound sleeper app
  • Hanging out in the wrap
  • Going for walks in the stroller

I'm so glad that I get to be your Mama and I can't wait to know you more, sweet Luka. 

Love Forever,
Your Mama